Happy But Not

Here I am on my bed rest. I have already reached my limits. I've been neglecting my body for the longest time. Been flying like crazy for so long without taking time to unwind and regain strength. Rome flight was so tiring, one of the most tiring I did in my entire flying career. After Rome we had a 20-hour layover in Riyadh. It's not even enough to recover from stress and extreme exhaustion. I could not even get up from my bed. I slept for about 15 hours but it's not really enough. I just forced myself to walk upon knowing 'twas already 30 minutes before our wake up call. I could not even go to the bathroom and pee. 

It doesn't end there. After the Riyadh layover we have yet three domestic flights to operate with changing of aircraft and 2 hours ground time. It's tiring as h-e-l-l! I felt like my arms were already falling apart, my legs were shaking, my feet were throbbing, and I had a very terrible headache. Imagine that. I could not even stand during boarding, I was already sitting on  a passenger's arm rest (empty seats of course). But that's not enough, the worse that could happen to me was doing a violation against safety! OMG. I could have lost my job if the purser and captain had been so strict. I got the shock of my life! Unbelievable. I'm very careful each time I fly but all of a sudden a big no-no happened. 

On my jumpseat I was shaking, my entire body was, like how our feet throb due to over-walking, that's how my entire body was. I never felt so exhausted until that very moment. So realization took place. I could no longer fly the following days. My whole body is wrecked. I was there sitting, wanting to cry, wanting to vomit out of extreme exhaustion. I just fly and fly, trying to hit the highest flying time I could so I would of course receive a higher salary in return, compromising my wellness. After several months of doing so, here I am, lamenting over my mistakes. 

While on my jumpseat, it's like the whole world was on my shoulders. I was screaming to myself, "I deserrrve an LV every year! I deserrrve the best things in life! I deserrrve a grand personal vacation! I deserrrve all those shopping, heck, I even deserrrve more shopping! I deserrrve them all!"

My sister said I deprive myself of the good stuff. I don't buy gadgets or anything pricey. My reason was, "I'm saving." She said, "No. You're hoarding your money!" Stupid me, she's right. I want to save a lot of money for my family's vacation come July-August in Hongkong-Macau. It's just a week but I don't know what's driving me crazy to fly a lot to earn a lot. Ah yes, I know - Moolah.

Realizing what my sister said was true, off we went shopping for gadgets. Finally, at long last, I already bought an Ipad Mini 2 and a new camera: Canon SX510 HS Power Shot with wi-fi. I love how classy it looks like, like a posh DSLR but so cute and small! She's been nagging me about those for sooo long but the bummer me was just ignoring her. Plus one more item that will add to my footwear collection, a pair of blue Grendha sandals. :) Yey! I already have 2 pais in nude and a pair in green, so time for a new color! 

 So now, here I am, finally feeding my gusto. Thank You, God, for all the blessings. Though I'm in a bad shape right now, I could still say flying is the best job in the world. :)